I am Ayguili. I am not Ba'atar. I have great respect and love for my brother, but I am not him. I do not walk like him, I do not talk like him, and I do not think like him. I am my own man.
There have already been whispers that Ba'atar would not have done it that way. Ba'atar told me this, Ba'atar told me that, Ba'atar promised me this or that. I do not know what my brother has said to anyone, or what he may have promised, so my wishes will not follow his. I am Ayguili.
I do not know how long I will sit upon the honored gray furs, but while I do, I will make decisions with my own mind and my own heart. It is the only way I know how to do things, my way.
I believe in the time honored traditions of my people, but I also realize that there are times when we must make changes in order to survive. Just as the stream has to have fresh water to flow into it, so that it does not get stagnant and die. Just as we try to keep on the move, to not over graze the land. Change is needed, change is imperative or we will weaken as a people.
I know there are those that cling to the old ways with a tenacity that is almost awe inspiring, but on the other hand, it keeps them from looking around themselves to see the possibilities that are available.
My intent while I am Ubar, is to initiate some changes. But I have to be cautious and do it in a way that does not totally threaten the foundation of who we are. To make this change successful, I have to communicate with the people, let them know what is going on so there will be no more distorted thoughts or rumors. I have to instill in them the confidence to come to me and ask and to not just assume. I do not want them to fear talking to me. I have discovered in my life, that listening to others is always important, that is how you learn about them, and they learn about you. Even if you are Ubar and have the final word, you still have to listen.
I have already made some changes. I have asked Fonce to take up the reins of his command again and to be my second in command. I am a firm believer in surrounding myself with people that I can trust, and who I know will be honest with me and give me the guidance that I seek. He agreed with his own caveat, and I would have expected no less of him.
He will take on the responsibilities that I asked, but he has warned me that he will not follow blindly, and I would not want him to. If he does not agree or understand the direction I am going he will question and discuss it with me. And this is what I am looking for. I respect him as a man, a warrior and I respect the fact that he has walked this path before me, and his thoughts can be invaluable. I am comfortable with this change.
In talking with him about the responsibilities about being second in command, I also asked his thoughts on his clan, and he impressed me with is honesty, his integrity and his vision. So, I have also asked him to take over as head of the Spex clan. And I have done this for basically the same reasons that I wanted him as my second in command. I trust him and I want to see where he will lead.
Changes are never easy, but I hope to instill enough trust in me that people will reach out and embrace them, instead of fearing them. That is the challenge of life, to be able to accept that which is unfamiliar and either learn from it, or conquer your fear of it.
I am Ayguili.
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